As I sat down on that half-wet floor
Streams of strangled wonders paved my mind
My dreams of freedom curtailed behind those grills
My emptiness from friends and acquaintances
I watched the little stuffy room with discontent
Its contents lying still on the floor that served as my bed
I looked up the high roof with gaping holes
The stars staring blankly at my tormentous life.
My thoughts went back and then the future
Maybe tomorrow was my only future existing
My dwindled, emaciated body creaked
Baked in hot sun and long hours of bending
Three canes on my woundy back
I kept trying to forget the trouble tomorrow beheld
The thin white tasteless half-cooked porridge
The bitter leaves and porridge-ugali to come
Long hours of waiting to taste it
Because I was totally hungry.
I kept wandering even more
If the next day I would follow my ally
Into the chambers of death
In there where gas chambers suffocated you
And you had to fight and purr like a lion
For survivals sake rather than painful death.
The list of torture was updated daily
Yet our simple wants were dismissed
For prisoners had no choice of wants, dos and don’ts
Rather their only jobs were to comply to commands.
Respect the totalitarian authority imposed
Yet new circulars administered for change,
The change that was never effected on us prisoners.
False reports were always neatly written
To please the boss who was kept in check
As long as he puts on a blind mask
Not to see the hypocrisy of his juniors
With false pretentious guess
That all was well as long as all was well
Make merry and celebrate.
I hated sleep, jiggers gave me no peace
Bedbugs and fleas invading my privacy
Ruining my honor from the tiresome day’s load
Making my dreams terrible, unbearable
In the presence of lowly esteemed weak neighbors.
I hated living
Drinking water rationed like precious gems
A shower was always out of the picture
Of course no strength to raise a hand and scratch
While I worked the formula of the filthy evening meal
And the blanket less night to come.
Just because I stole a mango………
-photo credit: Dailymail